Welcome visitor you can log in or create an account

Angelena Boden

Angelena Boden

Website URL:

Talking About Death, Celebrating Life

YODO! No, it’s not a new greeting. It’s shorthand for You Only Die Once, so why not make it a good death? There has never been a better time to get talking about those “face behind a cushion” topics we’d all rather pretend weren’t going to happen. At least, not to us.

The international Death Cafe movement has been encouraging us to share what’s on our mind about death, dying and bereavement since 2011 when Jon Underwood set up the first Death Cafe meeting in Hackney, washed down with tea and sweetened with a bit of cake. Over 6000 meetings in 56 countries have been held to date but you won’t find negativity on the menu.

It’s a safe space run with no agenda, no aim to convert to a belief or sign up to a philosophy of life (or death). No one is under pressure to do or say anything. No long lectures or guest speakers pontificating, no funeral services representatives trying to sell you a plan. Just you, others like you and the facilitator wanting to share what’s on their mind. To find out about a meeting in your area or to see what’s involved should you want to set one up, visit www.deathcafe.org Follow them on Twitter @DeathCafe

Let’s get back to YODO. Being near Birmingham, I shall be attending A Matter of Life and Death Festival (May 10th – 26th), an arts of cultural programme of events with death as a core theme. BrumYODO is a local collective set up with the aim of helping the people of Birmingham have more open and honest conversations about death and dying. The collective describes themselves as “a growing group of artists, undertakers, food artists, hospices, palliative care professionals and generally all-round interesting folk. http://brumyodo.org.uk/matter-life-death/

So why am I so passionate about the need to talk about all things mortal?

As someone who has suffered from death anxiety (thanatophobia) ever since my Grandad died when I was ten (fifty years ago), I discovered that I wasn’t alone. Part of any fear is driven by not owning it. Bringing it out into the open is one way of disempowering that fear and empowering ourselves. In doing so, we add more value and quality into our daily lives by making every moment count.

            I’ve attended a number of Death Cafe meetings which have provided the inspiration for my latest novel, EDNA’S DEATH CAFE, set in the Derbyshire Peak District, my childhood stomping ground. Fiction can often reach parts that other communication channels cannot. We can be alone with a book, argue with the characters, ponder on their words and reflect on their lives, hopefully to find resonance with ours.

            I’ll be writing more about the book, about bereavement and my work as a newly trained funeral celebrant. I’ll leave you with my favourite bit of philosophy. Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside is while we live. Norman Cousins.

Edna’s Death Cafe will be published by Matador in September 2018. Keep up to date with the news on Twitter. Follow @Angelena Boden @matadorbooks


Why I Hate Eating

One of my recurrent symptoms of non-combat post- traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is the inability to digest food. At these times, the thought of having to eat anything solid triggers an outraged response from my digestive system. I’m surprised the neighbours can’t hear it shrieking out for help.

Everything about food, the look, colour, texture and smell leaves me nauseous. My throat rebels by tightening up so that it’s even a struggle to swallow tea. TEA? I ask you. Nothing has ever stopped me drinking tea. Except the panic that comes with the flashbacks. I’ll write about those later.

The OM (Old Man) has to shoot out to the chemist to get me a protein shake which lasts me all day. All 203 calories of it. I wish I could pop a pill or mix a powder with water instead.

To be honest, for the past ten years my diet has been restricted to 15 different foods, all bland and unexciting. It’s too much effort to think about shopping for it, preparing it and then having to actually eat it. My winter breakfast is an oat bar, my summer breakfast, muesli. Lunch is always soup and gluten free oatcakes, (home -made) and dinner, a tiny portion of fish and salad or just salad. Rice cakes do a good job of filling the holes.

I’m a lousy dinner guest and you would never see me posting pictures of meals in restaurants as I rarely go. It’s such an uncomfortable experience. I can’t drink alcohol (hate the stuff) and have to be really nice to the staff to organise something for me that’s off-menu. Gluten free, acid free, lactose free, meat free, sugar free and fat free. Grass madam?

May as well since everything tastes pretty much the same. Don’t offer me sludgy food either. Rice pudding, custard, porridge. I’m not sick but I would be at the mere sight of something that looks as if it should be plaster for walls.

The stress of long term trauma has left me with a condition known as GORD gastro-oesophageal reflux disease which has got so bad it’s upped its game into a pre-cancerous condition called Barrett’s Oesophagus. I should have shares in Aloe Vera juice, Apple Cider Vinegar and other stuff which boasts its efficacy in soothing the gut but is the underlying trauma leading to the stress which impacts on the stomach, that second brain, that is to blame. Please don’t tell me to get therapy. I’ve tried it all at great expense. A memory wipe-out would be the easiest.

It’s been eight days since by last big melt down. I am back to drinking tea and nibbling on a rice cake. There’s an event in the town I am supposed to be attending tonight. Hopefully I won’t be bamboozled into trying Mrs. Shepherd’s utterly delicious lemon drizzle cake. The dog might be in for an unexpected treat.


An Interview with Jane Davis

I am thrilled to host an interview with the award winning, Jane Davis, on my blog, in advance of the publication of her new novel, Smash all the Windows. My questions are driven by a personal desire to find out more about writers and how they work.

Hailed by The Bookseller as ‘One to Watch’, she is the author of eight novels.

Jane spent her twenties and the first part of her thirties chasing promotions at work, but when she achieved what she’d set out to do, she discovered that it wasn’t what she wanted after all. It was then that she turned to writing.

Her debut, Half-truths & White Lies, won the Daily Mail First Novel Award 2008. Of her subsequent three novels, Compulsion Reads wrote, ‘Davis is a phenomenal writer, whose ability to create well-rounded characters that are easy to relate to feels effortless’. Her 2015 novel, An Unknown Woman, was Writing Magazine’s Self-published Book of the Year 2016 and has been shortlisted for two further awards.

Where do you get your ideas from? What inspired your latest book, Smash all the Windows? Powerful title!

I’m glad you like the title. It took me a long time to settle on it. The novel began with outrage. I was infuriated by the press’s reaction to the outcome of the second Hillsborough inquest. Microphones were thrust at family members as they emerged from the courtroom. It was put them that, now that it was all over, they could get on with their lives. ‘What lives?’ I yelled at the television.

For those who don’t know about Hillsborough, a crush occurred during the 1989 FA Cup semi-final, killing 96 fans. A single lie was told about the cause of the disaster: In that moment, Liverpool fans became scapegoats. It would be twenty-seven years before the record was set straight.

Elizabeth Strout tells her writing students, ‘You can’t write fiction and be careful.’ But none of us exists in a vacuum. The pain I saw on the faces of family members as they struggled with the question was raw. And so combining two of my fears – travelling in rush hour by Tube, and escalators – I created a fictional disaster.

The previous year, en route to a Covent Garden book-reading, I’d suffered a fall. The escalator I normally use was out of order. Instead we were diverted to one that was much steeper, but I was totally unprepared for its speed. When I pushed my suitcase full of books in front of me, I was dragged off-balance. Fortunately, no one was directly in front. I escaped relatively unscathed. But the day could have ended very differently.

What did you edit out of this book, and how do you know when to stop (editing)?

I tend to add things in the edit rather than edit out, but in this case, I removed what was effectively a prologue. The book originally began with a leaked extract from a letter to the Lord Mayor of London (fictional, of course). The reason for its inclusion was because when I wrote An Unchoreographed Life I found that despite the overwhelming focus on London in British news broadcasts, people living outside London really didn’t have an understanding of the issues Londoners face on a day-to-day basis. My concern was, what if readers don’t get the book? The letter contained factual background about the speed of the growth of London’s population (10% year on year), the inadequacies of transport system, the conflict of being aware of this position but wanting to stage an Olympic games and make the City the business capital of the world – all thrilling stuff. My structural editor thought it was in the wrong place, but my beta readers told me it made for a very cold, clinical beginning to what they felt is actually a warm and big-hearted book. In the end, I drip-fed the content elsewhere.

Does writing energise, or exhaust you? What do you need, to get from an idea to a final version?

I’m hesitant because I’m honestly not sure of the answer to the first part of the question. I’m someone who likes to be in the right frame of mind for the scene I’m writing. If I know I have to write a tired and exhausted scene, I have been known to set my alarm for the middle of the night. If my character is having a drink, I might also have a drink. I suppose you could say I’m a method writer.

The answer to the second part is that I’m a gradual layer-er, and that takes time. With the exception of Half-truths and White Lies, which virtually wrote itself, none of my published novels bear any resemblance to their early drafts.

I like George R R Martin’s quote: ‘I’ve always said there are two kinds of writers. There are architects and gardeners. Architects do blueprints before they drive the first nail, they design the entire house, where the pipes are running and how many rooms there are going to be, how high the roof will be. But the gardeners just dig a hole and plant the seed and see what comes up.’ Personally, I think there are more than two types of writers. I want to be Mary Anning scouring the beaches at Lyme Regis for dinosaur fossils, or Howard Carter discovering the tomb of Tutankhamun, or metal detectorist Terry Herbert digging up the Staffordshire Hoard. What I don’t want to be is a parent deciding on my child’s future, telling my son which subjects he will study, arranging my daughter’s marriage. 

Every time you introduce a new angle, each ‘what if?’ question has to be pushed to its limits. Setting material aside and revisiting it is an excellent practice. It allows far greater objectivity. You have to analyse what isn’t working any why, then once you have the structure you go back and make every page shine.

The pivotal moment of a novel may not actually reveal itself until several edits in, or until an editor comments, ‘I see the point that you were trying to make.’ As author Roz Morris says, sometimes it takes a reader to hold the mirror up to your work. Sometimes I will realise that whatever I thought I was writing about, this is the one sentence the whole plot hangs on. Sometimes it’s a subtle change in mind-set, but equally it can be a Eureka moment.  

I’m afraid that anyone who imagines that words show up in the eventual order that they appear on the page of any novel is, in the majority of cases, mistaken. In some ways, the novel in its final form is an illusion, the rabbit pulled out of the hat.

What overall feeling would you like your readers to experience, on reaching the last page of your books? How do you feel when you write, The End? (if you do, that is).  

I’d like to leave them breathless. With A Funeral for an Owl, I deliberately tried to end the book with a gasp. But if not breathless, then with more questions and wanting to know what happen next. I am afraid my novels don’t come with any guarantee of a tidy endings. I agree with Samuel Johnson that an author only begins a book; it is the reader who finishes it.

Do you know, I have never typed The End.  

It’s said that it takes 12 seconds for a reader to choose a book. Your book covers are emotive, and outstandingly beautiful in design. How much input do you have into this, and how important is the cover, and the title of a book, in building sales?

I’m glad you like them.

One of the joys of self-publishing is choosing how to present your work. Given that mine is difficult to categorise, I was conscious of the need for a strong brand. You’re right about the need to grab a reader’s attention. An author only has eight seconds to do just that. First impressions really count! I used elements from the cover of Half-truths and White Lies as building blocks: the font and the strong photographic image, repeated on the spine. The brief I gave cover designer Andrew Candy was that my books should look like a set you’d want to collect. I was thinking of my own bookshelves: the novels of John Irving; Frank Herbert’s Dune series; classic Penguin paperbacks. I wanted that certain something that would make people say, ‘Oh, another Jane Davis.’

I’m a very visual person with a passion for photography and so I wanted to be a part of the design process, sourcing the photographs and coming up with the concepts.

Looking for images that captures both the themes of a book and its genre isn’t always easy. These Fragile Things tackles some meaty subjects, including near-death experience and religious visions. I was only aware of one other contemporary novel covering the same issues – Francesca Kay’s The Translation of the Bones, whose cover makes a confident statement about the content – a woman holding a rosary. Instead, I opted to convey the mood of the book. A butterfly with a broken wing is an emotive image, conveying fragility.

For the cover of A Funeral for an Owl, perhaps the most literal of all my book covers, I had the image of a boy in mind, and my search for the right face took a long time. I was thinking of Ken Loach’s film adaptation of A Kestrel for a Knave (the wonderful Kes), and U2’s album cover for Boy. Eventually I found him. A boy looking out of a window, his face reflected back at him. The wonder in his eyes is palpable. A boy who might be looking out of the window of his council flat and catching his first glimpse of an owl…

As I’ve learned to trust Andrew, I have become more experimental. For An Unchoreographed Life, my novel about a ballerina who turns to prostitution when she becomes a single mother, I wanted to avoid any hint of erotica. My story has more in common with Henry James’s What Maisie Knew than Belle de Jour. Describing a scene where my main character Alison comes face to face with a stag, I asked if it would be possible to combine the image of a ballerina with a deer. Andrew’s answer was yes, but only if I could find the right woman and the right deer, otherwise it would end up looking like a ‘bodge-jon’. So that was my challenge. The final image suits the book perfectly: a woman who hasn’t been able to let go of her past and wears a mask.

The design for An Unknown Woman needed to show a woman undergoing an identity crisis. I wanted it to represent the difference between the way we see ourselves and how others see us, but also to hint at a complex mother/daughter relationship. I came up with the idea of two halves of a woman’s face and Andrew suggested adding a cracked mirror. I sourced the image of the younger woman, but it was Andrew who found picture the older woman, and then used his technical wizardry to manipulate it so that they look like one and the same. The cover won two awards and I have no doubt that it contributed to Writing Magazine’s decision to name An Unknown Woman as their Self-published book of the year.

For My Counterfeit Self, I chose an award-winning image by Sergiy Glushchenko/500px. Water is a repeat theme within the novel, but there’s also the sense of falling, disaster and shock. My main character, Lucy Forrester, is a political poet whose main cause is CND. It struck me that the bubbles coming from the woman’s mouth looked a little like a mushroom cloud so we exaggerated that. I particularly liked the idea of the mushroom cloud coming out of the poet’s mouth.

Personally, I love the cover for Smash all the Windows. We have the starling from a particularly poignant scene in the novel, a hint of anger, a hint of disaster, a hint of ghosts, and the book’s setting – the City of London.

So many authors are disillusioned with the traditional route to publishing. What tempted you down the self-published path, knowing that the business side of book promotion would be all on your shoulders?

It’s important to recognise how rapidly publishing is developing. I swap stories with authors who are under contract and most say that they are under two-book deals for which they had received perhaps £5 – 8,000, compared with £20,000 - £30,000 in 2009, as I also did. In many cases, the advance for the book won’t cover what they know they’ll have to spend.

In November 2012 I was out of contract and decided to investigate self-publishing. I attended a self-publishing conference and discovered that, far from what I’d been told, indie authors aren’t amateurish. They’re a diverse group - authors who’ve walked away from six-figure deals, established authors who’ve been dropped by their publishers after their latest book didn’t sell quite so well, innovative authors whose work doesn’t fit the market, cross-genre authors who market themselves as a brand, best-selling authors who have never tried the traditional route, who were there at the right place, at the right time. It was a publishing revolution. So was I in or was I out? I didn’t take much more convincing. Provided you’re comfortable with the business side of things – and not all authors are – the advantages are clear. A greater share of the profits, the ability to publish to your own schedule in a timely manner, and to tweak anything that isn’t working, whether that’s the blurb, the price or the book cover, but most importantly, creative control. If I take two years to produce a book rather than one, so be it. I choose which subjects to write about, which professionals to collaborate with and how to present my work. 

Authors are people, first and foremost. Would you like to offer us a few random facts about yourself?

  • My mother played the recorder on the Finger of Fudge advert.
  • I used to be qualified to take other people winter mountaineering. Horrifying, I know.
  • Ever since I had laser eye surgery, I have suffered from vertigo.
  • I have to take three small steps before getting on at the top of an escalator.

Publication details


Smash all the Windows will be released on 12 April. The Universal Link is books2read.com/u/49P21p

Jane lives in Carshalton, Surrey with her Formula 1 obsessed, star-gazing, beer-brewing partner, surrounded by growing piles of paperbacks, CDs and general chaos. When she isn’t writing, you may spot her disappearing up a mountain with a camera in hand. Her favourite description of fiction is ‘made-up truth’.

Also by the Author

Half-truths & White Lies

I Stopped Time

These Fragile Things

A Funeral for an Owl

An Unchoreographed Life

An Unknown Woman

My Counterfeit Self


Website: https://jane-davis.co.uk
Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/JaneDavisAuthorPage
Twitter: https://twitter.com/janedavisauthor
Pinterest: http://pinterest.com/janeeleanordavi/boards/

Press enquiries This email address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it.

High resolution photos available from https://jane-davis.co.uk/media-kit/


Jane Davis Launches ‘Unpredictable’ Eighth Novel

Fans of Davis’s fiction have stopped trying to predict where she’ll take her writing next. Since winning the Daily Mail First Novel Award in 2008, she’s become known for writing about big subjects and giving her characters almost impossible moral dilemmas. She’s said in the past that what interests her is how people behave under pressure, because it reveals so much about them. And as the tagline of Smash all of the Windows suggests, her new offering is no exception. 

When life steals everything you love, is anger the only answer?

Says Davis, “This book started life as my reaction to the outcome of the second inquest about the Hillsborough football stadium disaster, when the ruling that had laid the blame at the feet of football fans was overturned. The expectation was that now justice had been delivered, the families could ‘get on with their lives’. My question was, What lives? 

In creating my fictional disaster, I combined two of my fears – travelling in rush hour by Tube, and escalators – plus a fall I suffered on my way to a book-reading in Covent Garden. I was overloaded, having just finished a day’s work in the city. I was carrying my laptop bag, my briefcase, plus I had a suitcase full of books in tow. The escalator that I normally use was out of order and we were diverted to one that was much steeper and faster. I pushed my suitcase in front of me and it literally dragged me down head first. Fortunately, there was no one directly in front of me, but things could have ended very differently.” 

Jane spent her twenties and the first part of her thirties chasing promotions at work, but when she achieved what she’d set out to do, she discovered that it wasn’t what she had wanted after all. It was then that she turned to writing. Her debut, Half-truths and White Lies, won the Daily Mail First Novel Award. Seven further novels, which straddle contemporary, historical, literary and women’s fiction genres, have earned her comparisons to Kate Atkinson and Maggie O’Farrell. An Unknown Woman, was Writing Magazine’s Self-Published Book of the Year 2016.

Smash all the Windows

Genre: Modern and Contemporary Fiction (FA), Literary, General fiction

‘A dazzling high wire walk through interwoven strands balanced so carefully you know you’ll never fall.’ Dan Holloway, novelist, poet and spoken word artist

‘Just fricking perfect. An all-round triumph.’ John Hudspith

‘This is an astounding read. I was completely captivated.’ Liz Carr 

It has taken conviction to right the wrongs. 

It will take courage to learn how to live again.

For the families of the victims of the St Botolph and Old Billingsgate disaster, the undoing of a miscarriage of justice should be a cause for rejoicing. For more than thirteen years, the search for truth has eaten up everything. Marriages, families, health, careers and finances.

Finally, the coroner has ruled that the crowd did not contribute to their own deaths. Finally, now that lies have been unravelled and hypocrisies exposed, they can all get back to their lives.

If only it were that simple. 

Smash all the Windows will be released on 12 April, but you can pre-order it now for the special price of 99p/99c (Price increases to £1.99 on 12 March. Price on publication will be £3.99). The Universal Link is books2read.com/u/49P21p

Jane spent her twenties and the first part of her thirties chasing promotions at work, but when she achieved what she’d set out to do, she discovered that it wasn’t what she had wanted after all. It was then that she turned to writing. 

Her debut, Half-truths and White Lies, won the Daily Mail First Novel Award and was described by Joanne Harris as 'A story of secrets, lies, grief and, ultimately, redemption, charmingly handled by this very promising new writer.' Seven further novels, which straddle contemporary, historical, literary and women’s fiction genres, have earned her comparisons to more seasoned authors such as Kate Atkinson and Maggie O’Farrell. An Unknown Woman, has been named Self-Published Book of the Year 2016 by Writing Magazine and the DSJT Charitable Trust. Jane's favourite description of fiction is ‘made-up truth’.

Jane lives in Carshalton, Surrey, with her Formula 1 obsessed, beer-brewing partner, surrounded by growing piles of paperbacks, CDs and general chaos. When she is not writing, you may spot Jane disappearing up the side of a mountain with a camera in hand. 

You can find her at: 

Website: https://jane-davis.co.uk

Sign up to my newsletter at www.jane-davis.co.uk/newsletter and get your free copy of I Stopped Time. 

Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/JaneDavisAuthorPage

Twitter: https://twitter.com/janedavisauthor

Pinterest: http://pinterest.com/janeeleanordavi/boards/



Books2Read Universal Link          books2read.com/u/49P21p

Amazon.com                                     https://www.amazon.com/dp/B079MBP3WD

Amazon.co.uk                                   https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B079MBP3WD

ASIN                                                      B079MBP3WD

Draft2Digital                                       https://www.draft2digital.com/book/305043

Kobo:                                                    https://www.kobo.com/gb/en/ebook/smash-all-the-windows

Smashwords                                      https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/788752

Smashwords ISBN                           ISBN 9781310986826

Apple (iBooks)                                  https://itunes.apple.com/us/book/id1346027779

Barnes & Noble                                https://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/smash-all-the-windows-jane-davis/1127938176

Goodreads                         https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/38447206-smash-all-the-windows

Subscribe to this RSS feed